Archive for May, 2006

…saliva…

Tuesday, May 30th, 2006
REST IN PIECES
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Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
Cause this hurts deeper than I thought it did
It has not healed with time
It just shot down my spine. You look so beautiful tonight
Remind me how you laid us down
And gently smiled before you destroyed my life
Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart?
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart?
To make it go away
And let me rest in pieces
Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
You got much closer than I thought you did
Im in your reach
You held me in your hands
But could you find it in your heart?
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart?
To make it go away
And let me rest in pieces

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Hate Me

Thursday, May 25th, 2006

Hate Me by Blue October

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There’s a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put in my face?
And will you never try to reach me? it is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things i didn’t do for you

I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling "make it go away!"
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered "how can you do this to me?"

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

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Mercy Me

Tuesday, May 9th, 2006

ALKALINE TRIO

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MERCY ME
It’s been a long day living with this
It’s been a long time since I felt so sick
I took a long walk straight back home
I could’ve walked back to San Francisco
I used to long for time alone
I used to long for a place of my own
Now I’m losing faith in everything
I’m lost, so lost, I’m lost at sea, you see

I used to long for broken bones
I used to long for a casket to call my own
I never had a problem facing fear
But I’m done, over and out my dear and

Oh, mercy me, God bless catastrophe!
‘Cause there’s no way in hell
We’ll ever live to see through this so
Drive yourself insane tonight
It’s not that far away and I just
filled up your tank earlier today

It’s been a long day living with this
It’s been a long time since I felt so sick
I took a long walk straight back home
I could’ve walked back to Chicago
I used to long for time alone
I used to long for a place of my own
And I’ve lost faith in everything
I’m lost, so lost, I’m lost without you

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for my danielle

Sunday, May 7th, 2006

i carry your heart (by: e.e. cummings)

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in  my heart)

i am never without it (anywhere  i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done 
by only me is your doing, my darling) 

i fear  not fate(for you are my fate, my sweet) i want 
no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true) 
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant 
and whatever a sun will always sing is you 

here is the deepest secret nobody knows 
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud 
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows 
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide) 
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart 

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart) 

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